Mental discipline

I eat my emotions.
I'm bored; I want a salty snack.
I'm upset; I want something sweet.
I'm frustrated; gimme a snack.

I wonder what would have happened if I had been raised in a different home.

I think I deserve to eat something that isn't very healthy because I ate some healthy stuff earlier. Although I eat more of the unhealthy stuff than I should.

These are just some thoughts I had recently while working through a moment of really wanting  more than fruits & veggies. And I'm back at that weakness the last 24 hours or so. I'm tired of doing this cleanse!! I only have 5 more days, but I am so hungry for some bread, some cereal, some potatoes, some things with flour.... Ugh.

I keep reminding myself of my whys for doing this. But it also hit me yesterday while feeling kinda down, that this is just the first step in a long process. I think I've kinda plateaued with my energy boost - my muscles still ache and I still have some fatigue. I had to remind myself that these 21 days were just to get rid of some toxicity, and then after this I will have to rebuild my mineral levels and such. That will take a little longer. But at least I can eat more. !!

I am already having to plan for the days after this cleanse, introducing foods slowly so that I can see if anything causes a reaction. Bluck. More discipline. I'm tired. Whine whine whine. Maybe I should have some wine. Hardy haR har. Oh wait, I can't.  Not on the diet.

And it's cold. I want my sweet, creamy coffee. Whine whine some more.

Okay. I'm done for now.

Maybe.